The Hearth

THE HEARTH


1.

Alone after the news on a bitter
evening in the country,
sleet slashing the stubbled fields,
the river ice;
I keep stirring up the recalcitrant fire,

but when I throw my plastic coffee cup
in with new kindling it perches intact
on a log for a strangely long time,
as though uncertain what to do,

until, in a somehow reluctant, almost
creaturely way, it dents, collapses,
and decomposes to a dark slime
untwining itself on the stone hearth.

I once knew someone who was caught
in a fire and made it sound something
like that. He'd been loading a bomber
and a napalm shell had gone off;
flung from the flames,

at first he felt nothing, and thought
he'd been spared, but then came the pain,
then the hideous dark--he'd been blinded,
and so badly charred he spent years

in recovery: agonizing debridements,
grafts, learning to speak through
a mouth without lips,
to read Braille with fingers
lavaed with scar,
to not want to die--

Though that never happened.
He swore, even years later,
with a family,
that if he were back there,
this time allowed
to put himself out of his misery,
he would.


2.

There was dying here tonight, after
dusk, by the road: an owl,
eyes fixed and flared, breast
so winter-white he seemed to shine

a searchlight on himself, helicoptered
near a wire fence, then suddenly
banked, plunged, and vanished
into the swallowing dark with his prey.

Such an uncomplicated departure;
no detonation, nothing to mourn;
if the creature being torn
from its life
made a sound,
I didn't hear it.

But in truth I wasn't listening,
I was thinking,
as I often do these days, of war;
I was thinking of my children,
and their children,
of the more than fear I feel for them,

and then of radar, rockets, shrapnel,
cities razed, soil poisoned
for a thousand generations;
of suffering so vast
it nullifies everything else.

I stood in the wind in the raw cold
wondering how those with power over us
can effect such things, and by what
cynical reasoning pardon themselves.

The fire's ablaze now, its glow
on the windows takes the night even darker,
but it barely keeps the room warm.
I stoke it again, and crouch closer.

-- C. K. Williams

Posted over on Poets Against War