Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Motherhood as First Language




Motherhood as First Language


The mother's tongue speaks
and the realm we are returned to
with our pregnancy
and giving birth;
returned as transported visitors,
gone through the portal,
reborn we birth there,
made changeling--
all of these,
but not always the mystical journey;
sometimes we returned as kidnapped,
hostage in a world of children.

The mother's tongue is the language
of that realm'
our voice as both rule and guide,
heeded and non-heeded,
some sound we outselves can hardly hear,
and often voice beyond sound;
gestures and sensations,
the things at the tip of our tongues
we cannot say.

It is the language of the female body.
We laugh, my friends,
as we become "old mothers"
in our late 30's, even 40's.
Nursing babies, we bookish women,
we near spinsters, laugh
because we could not have known,
living so long in our heads,
how powerful our bodies could be,
once they had made other bodies.


Heid E. Erdrich.....from the preface to The Mother's Tongue

Craving Honey


Painting by Anita Endrezze

Craving Honey


Not the African bird, not the Honey Guide
who dives the honey badger,
or any human who comes near.
Not the bird who leads beasts
to the bee tree, and then begs for its share.

Not the bird calling "eat with me",
whose people, now forced from the bush,
ignore its cry in the rush of African suburbs.

No, not the bird, but the printed path,
the iris landing strip marked to show bees
right into the nectary, to drops
deep in throat-open flowers.

Not what we expected--that bees need a map.
Still our search for sweetness can go hard,
the signs often uncertain, the comb
when we find it, locked in a wax tough to crack.

Not what we always thought
that the blue flag unfurling meant to lure us
when all along the iris wanted only bees.

Not the bird, not the flower.
No mystic hint of what it is we want.
Only a line in print on furred petals.
Only the beeline.
Only what points the way to.


Heid E. Erdrich.....from The Mother Tongue

The Three Graces


Pictured from left: Heid, Louise, and Lise


Louise, Lise and Heid Erdrich -- sisters first, writers second -- look back on their parents' hand in fostering a shared love of language.

By SARAH T. WILLIAMS, Star Tribune

Sisters curdling with hatred, envy and jealousy abound in literature: Psyche's spiteful siblings, King Lear's jockeying progeny

But literary sisters Louise, Liselotte (Lise) and Heid Erdrich -- all published authors with varying degrees of honor, praise and glory -- betray no such sentiments.

"Ribaldry, maybe, but no rivalry," said Lise, the middle sister, who loves to crack wise. "We enjoy taking salacious interest in one another's love lives and teasing about our different dysfunctions."

Even novelist Louise, with her considerable canon, inspires no envy in her sisters.

Said Heid, who has two collections of poetry and a third coming soon: "[Louise's success] just made me think that it was possible to write, that it wouldn't be a crazy or silly thing to do, that it would be something that might be taken seriously."

Said Lise, whose short stories have been widely anthologized and whose first collection is just out: "They [Louise and Heid] have taken all the pressure off me so that I can continue to be a slacker and a goofball."

How did three gifted literary writers come from the same family?

"A genetic tic," said Lise.

But push the sisters to reflect on this question, and a moving, uncommon portrait of American family life emerges.

The sisters were born to Rita and Ralph Erdrich and raised in Wahpeton, N.D. Both parents, now in their 80s, were boarding-school teachers for the Turtle Mountain Band of Ojibwe. (Dad is German, mom Ojibwe.)

To hear the parents tell it, the Erdrich children seemed to absorb knowledge while their backs were turned, like those ferns that live on air. "They were all self-motivated," Ralph said. "There really was no 'strategy,'" Rita said. But the sisters remember their parents' clever hand in fostering reading, writing and language skills.

Rita designed flashcards and affixed them to objects in the house: "couch," "television," "refrigerator" -- even one for her friend "Bernice." With her Pfaff sewing machine, she made colorful zig-zag bindings on folded pieces of paper, "books" that the children would write in and illustrate. She still has one, Rita said, written by Heid:

"Horses and dogs are the best and loveleyest in all the world," it begins, with a dedication to her friend Carla Sims. ("Hmm ... already she knew she should dedicate," Rita said.)

A nickel a poem

Besides Louise, 53, of Minneapolis; Lise, 46, of Wahpeton, and Heid, 44, of Minneapolis, the couple have four other children: Mark, of San Diego, a pharmacist; Louis, of Bemidji, an Indian Health Service engineer, woodworker, winemaker and beer brewer; Ralph David, of Sisseton, S.D., an Indian Health Service nurse manager, and Angie, also of Sisseton, an Indian Health Service pediatrician. Louise is the oldest, Angie the youngest.

With seven mouths to feed, Rita and Ralph did not have many books in the house, but they took their children on frequent trips to the library. And the few odd books that were at home made a deep imprint. There were botanicals, copies of "Animal Farm," "Marjorie Morningstar" and, perhaps most important, "A Narrative of the Captivity and Adventures of John Tanner" (who lived among the Ojibwe from age 10, beginning in 1790), which the children mined for evidence of their Ojibwe forebears.

Ralph committed to memory and recited to his children the poems of Robert Frost, Robert W. Service, Henry Wadsworth Longfellow and Alfred Lord Tennyson. He'd pay the kids a nickel for each poem they memorized. "He just gave me a roll of nickels last summer," said Louise, "all buffalo heads." He apparently thought he was in arrears, she said.

Both parents were precise namers of things. On their outdoor excursions, the children learned to distinguish the birds (bluebirds, tree swallows, nighthawks, blue jays, woodpeckers and finches), plants (juneberries, chokecherries, wild asparagus, wild plums), mushrooms (elm caps, inky caps, shaggy manes) and the endless variety of apples cultivated on the nearby Wodarz farm (Haralson, Duchess, Prairie Spy, Chestnut Crab, Rome, Lodi, McIntosh, Cortland, Wealthy).

In doing this, said Louise, "my parents gave us an appreciation for the richness of the language, especially in relation to the natural world."

With two teachers as parents, a high value was placed on education.

The three writer sisters hold a total of at least eight higher-education degrees: Louise from Dartmouth and Moorhead State (English and creative writing), Lise from the University of North Dakota and Mankato State (linguistics, community health and chemical-dependency counseling) and Heid from Dartmouth and Johns Hopkins (English and native studies). Loans, wages, scholarships and help from Mom and Dad got them through.

'Dear Daughter'

The education of the Erdrich children continued after they left home, in the form of letters from Mom and Dad. Rita's letters were newsy, full of recipes and "fun and practical advice," said Louise. Ralph's were witty, anecdotal and intelligent. To Louise at Dartmouth, he wrote:

Dear Daughter:

Your mother is making every sort of apple concoction known to man with the eleven tons of apples I harvested. She finds time for all of this because you left clothes behind. She only has to slightly alter those duds for your sister Lise who is rapidly becoming the best dressed eighth grader of all time as she inherits your ex wardrobe. Our house is steeped in apple juice and attracts half a million bees from all parts of the county. The insides of our compost cans have the fattest ants in all of entomological history. These critters have achieved their corpulent state as the result of the presence of apple crap -- peelings and such -- which comes from the extra time Mom has -- which she got because she sews less -- which is because Lise gets your duds. See how your going to college has upset the balance of nature?

Magnum est vectigal parsimonia. [Thrift is a great revenue.]

Love, Dad

And again to Louise, when she was studying in London in 1976:

Dear Daughter:

We did appreciate the description of the death-obsessed poets in London. Stay away from them. Have you ever read the entire unexpurgated "Song of Hiawatha"? Longfellow employs eight-syllable trochaic verse. Before television, radio, and movies, before the telegraph, telephones, and the Battle of Little Big Horn, Hiawatha was a smash. Every literate and semi-literate on the face of the earth knew Hiawatha. These were the days to have been a poet. Longfellow became wealthy. Imagine that! A wealthy poet! When you mail things from London, use commemorative stamps, why don't you?

Magnum est vectigal parsimonia.

Love, Dad

The sisters' maternal grandfather, Patrick Gourneau, a truck farmer and council member for the Turtle Mountain Band, also encouraged a love of language. Lise remembers that he always carried a notebook and pen in his shirt pocket and that he would record any intriguing word, encounter or occurrence. When she was teaching herself Ojibwe, Lise found that she had acquired a sizable vocabulary but lacked a way of putting sentences together. She'd send practice tapes to her grandfather, who in turn would offer suggestions and corrections. She was just 10 years old.

"He was overjoyed that I wanted to learn Ojibwe," she said.

Three bears

With these familial gifts, both artistic and spiritual, the three sisters have moved ahead, through tragedies and successes. Today they have rich, full lives, as do their siblings.

Louise has just finished a new novel, "The Plague of Doves" (her 12th for adults), to be published in April. Her four daughters are doing well: One is showing promise as a writer in Hollywood, another is working at Birchbark Books (the Minneapolis bookshop owned by Louise) and two others are in school.

Louise admires Lise's "wildly marvelous" stories and Heid's "fierce" poems. More than the writing, she treasures her sisters' friendship and support: "As the oldest, I suppose I had to make a lot of the mistakes. ... When I've gotten in over my head, they've been there."

Lise, who has four grown sons, is taking time off as a community health worker to write a "geographical memoir" with the help of a grant from the St. Paul-based Bush Foundation. She feeds her sons, her sons' friends and their friends casseroles and souffles that are as inventive as her prose. The only rule in the house: "Don't take the Tater Tots off the top."

She's pleased to be getting her short stories published, but she's not looking forward to the attention. She deflects all praise: "Heid was kind enough to call me a 'savant' once, but she left off the word 'idiot.'" She's happy, very happy, that when she Googles herself now, the search engine no longer asks, "Did you mean: Louise Erdrich?"

Heid, who has two young children, has left her post as an English professor at the University of St. Thomas and is curating art shows at Ancient Traders Gallery in Minneapolis. Her new book of poems, "National Monuments," is inspired by a question: Why is it all right, in the Western world, to display the bones of indigenous peoples? She admits to tiny moments of exasperation with her hard-to-organize sisters.

"We are all bears," she said, "but I am the snuffly brown kind who will come out of hibernation for peanuts. Louise is a wild black Makwa who shies away from humans and who has not tasted garbage. Lise is a flat-out grizzly who guards her young and can take down prey with one swift swipe of her mighty paw.

"We'll never not be sisters. We have a beautiful, shared history."

Sarah T. Williams is the Star Tribune books editor.

Parade of Old Loves


Parade of Old Loves


Every night a different one returns:
his hair loopy curls or shorn
to velvet or in lanks or shiny bald,
he comes to me real as ever.
And I am utterly convinced each one
is the one who put this baby in me.
I take it as a retrospective show:
How things might have been—
This one's flat black eyes
on me again and me the same woman
I was once—as cold as he was hard.
I'm only waiting now to dream the one
I was all earth and warm for,
the one I lost with my belief.
I'll take this as my chance to retrieve
each part of me I loaned.
Come on guys, sure I'll say the baby's yours,
I'll make it bouncy, shining, golden just for you—
if only you bring it back, bring it all back,
so when I give this time, my gift is whole.


Heid E. Erdrich
—from The Mother’s Tongue

The Theft Outright


Painting by Anita Endrezze

The Theft Outright

after Robert Frost


We were the land's before we were.
Or the land was ours before you were a land.
Or this land was our land, it was not your land.
We were the land before we were people,
loamy roamers rising, so the stories go,
or formed of clay, spit into with breath reeking soul—

What's America, but the legend of Rock 'n' Roll?
Red rocks, blood clots bearing boys, blood sands
swimming being from women's hands, we originate,
originally, spontaneous as hemorrhage.
Un-possessing of what we still are possessed by,
possessed by what we now no more possess.

We were the land before we were people,
dreamy sunbeams where sun don't shine, so the stories go,
or pulled up a hole, clawing past ants and roots—
Dineh in documentaries scoff dna evidence off .
They landed late, but canyons spoke them home.
Nomadic Turkish horse tribes they don't know.

What's America, but the legend of Stop 'n' Go?
Could be cousins, left on the land bridge,
contrary to popular belief, that was a two-way toll.
In any case we'd claim them, give them some place to stay.
Such as we were we gave most things outright
(the deed of the theft was many deeds and leases
and claim stakes and tenure disputes and moved plat markers
stolen still today . . .)

We were the land before we were a people,
earthdivers, her darling mudpuppies, so the stories go,
or emerging, fully forming from flesh of earth—
The land, not the least vaguely,
realizing in all four directions,
still storied, art-filled, fully enhanced.
Such as she is, such as she wills us to become.



Heid E. Erdrich....from "National Monuments"
Who, for those who are wondering, or don't know, is the sister of
wonderful poet, Louise Erdrich.

True Myth


Painting by Anita Endrezze

True Myth


Tell a child she is composed of parts
(her Ojibway quarters, her half-German heart)
she'll find the existence of harpies easy
to swallow. Storybook children never come close
to her mix, but manticores make great uncles,
Sphinx a cousin she'll allow, centaurs better to love
than boys -- the horse part, at least she can ride.
With a bestiary for a family album she's proud.
Her heap of blankets, her garbage grin, prove
She's descended of bears, her totem, it's true.
And that German witch with the candy roof,
that was her ancestor too. If swans can rain
white rape from heaven, then what is a girl to do?
Believe her Indian eyes, her sly French smile,
Her breast with its veins skim milk blue --
She is the myth that is true.

Heid Erdrich
from Fishing for Myth

The Gulf of California


Painting and Poetry by Anita Endrezze

The Gulf of California


Then it was named the Vermilion Sea
when the red-shelled crabs clicked in the wake.
It was named the Sea of Cortez
because it is the right of the Conqueror
to claim the world in his name.

It's his right to name hunger after himself
and to take away rivers
and children
and to give back the bare bones
of life
in the Queen's name.

What can you say about men
who name the mountains "mother"
madre,
when the worst curse they can shout
defiles their mother
in the act of creation?

Now we call the Gulf of California
polluted
by the pesticides of fields,
and the wastes of factories.
And the voices of the fin-backed whale,
sardines, sea-kelp, anemone,
and turtles are quieter,
so that we have less memory
of the way it was,
and less hope
for the way it will be.

In the winter I eat strawberries
from Mexico,
and oranges, sectioned and split
apart
on my north continental plate.
I don't know much about my relatives
picking fields near Bacum, Texas.


Anita Endrezze.....from The Navel of the Moon.